Monday 31 May 2010

Attachment or Denial

It is my belief that my life (at least) is ABOUT the connections I make with people and the relationships I form. Some are short lived and some span for years. Some people, I know, will remain in my life for years to come, whilst others flutter in and out. The only permanent people seem to be my family which are not to be taken for granted either. I'm wondering then, is life about non-attachment or actually about the attachments. Looking around at my things, my clothes, my jewelry, my walls..EVERYTHING i'm attached to.

attachment |əˈtatʃm(ə)nt|noun1 an extra part or extension that is or can be attached to something toperform a particular function : the food processor comes with a blender attachment.a computer file appended to an e-mail.2 the condition of being attached to something or someone, in particularaffection, fondness, or sympathy for someone or something : she felt a sentimental attachment to the place.an affectionate relationship between two people : he formed an attachment with a young widow.3 the action of attaching something : the case has a loop for attachment to your belt.legal seizure of property.ORIGIN late Middle English (in the sense [arrest for contempt of court]): from Old French attachement, from atachier fasten, fix’ (seeattach ).

That doesn't mean to say that I couldn't survive without anything I'm attached to. But they do make me feel a little bit more secure with myself somehow because in a way they make me ME. Rather sadly, my laptop is my most precious (and personal) material possession. But I could live without it, just like I could get by (quite happily!) without the people I care about. Nevertheless, they make my life better and reflect a part of me and I find connection and fundamentally, love in them.
So, to say that I'm not attached to people/things would be denial. But when someone has either been sharply removed, or has consciously left me (my life) then this makes me cautious of my emotions. Wanting to say how I feel but something stabbing at me saying not to because everything is temporary. Is it? What resounds is nothing really matters, attached or not. As Yoda said "train yourself to let go of everything you fear to lose"... (though, I don't watch Sci-fi, this was robbed off a lovely and wise friend).

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